Yes, I have been thinking a lot these days. Certainly this has A LOT to do with the exam coming and uncertainty about my summer program, but I've been thinking about what I really want. I'm pretty sure that sleep-depriving and smoking has ruined my body, but I do these just to relief myself. I knew it's bad but sometimes you just need these stuff to deal with things. After today I decided I'm going to leave school for a long time till summer holiday because school sucks these days. I have a lot to say, but my throat is clogged, my tears are dried, so I might try using blood this time. Anyway, what to pursuit is still a question for me. I have so many things that I wanna do but I don't know in what order should I start. Also in this environment I don't have the time to do so. Possibly doing a roadtrip around USA or visit Vietnam or Malaysia. I mean, who knows? I'm writing not to express depression or rage. I'm writing to express happiness and relief (At least for today, I'm not sure what I'm gonna write while in depression). Possion'd Avril! Btw. Although it's already April the 2nd right now in UTC+8 hehehahahahahahha. Also, for the movie Possion'd Avril(1984) starring Yukuhiro Takahashi. No wonder nobody knows it right now. The imagery is picturesque. However the plot is suck and absolutely indecipherable. Whatever they say, I still like Yukuhiro Takahashi. May his soul rest in peace. It's extremely sad to see there's only one left for the trio YMO. The ASSIP program result will be released tomorrow I guess, I'm not sure whether I'm expecting them to accept me or not. Anyway I'm preparing for applying for more summer program. —— 2026-04-02 00:47